So Much More

More.

I want more for my life than settling.
I want more for my life than just getting by.
I want more for my life than busy.
I want more for my life than surface relationships.
I want more for my life than hiding from the big dreams.

More.

I want more for my family than full, busy schedules.
I want more for my family than rushing through our day just to get to bedtime.
I want more for my family than biting our tongues and not fully sharing our hearts.
I want more for my family than co-existing in a home without spending quality time with one another.
I want more for my family than entrusting discipleship to someone else.

More.

I want more for my marriage than being roommates.
I want more for my marriage than hiding our thoughts, fears, and dreams.
I want more for my marriage than a shared partnership in raising our children.
I want more for my marriage than just talking about the things of God to and from church and not at any other time.
I want more for my marriage than just creating memories for the sake of holidays, pictures, and expectations.

More.

I want more for my spiritual life than just checking off a box.
I want more in my relationship with Jesus.
I want more from those who lead me.
I want more giving and serving the least of these.
I want more of God's Word

More.

I want more because I believe there is more to be had.  

I don't want more possessions, attention, or pats on the back.  I
don't want more for the sake of accumulating more money, things, people, or power.  
I don't want more of the world.

I want more of my Jesus living fully in my life.  I want abundantly more than I could ever dream possible because there is SO MUCH MORE to this life...to my Jesus...to His plan for my life.  

"Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us."  Ephesians 3:20

My Jesus is able to do far MORE (abundantly MORE) than anything I could ask for or think.  All of those big dreams that require courage and an incredible amount of faith, He wants to lead me.  A rich and beautiful marriage that is truly a biblical marriage and exemplifies the love Jesus has for his church...He wants to give it to me.  A family that loves one another (and enjoys one another) and loves the Lord...He is orchestrating the details.  A relationship with Jesus that is beautiful and intimate...He is waiting for me to enter into it.  A life lived loudly, boldly, and full of truth...He encourages and equips me to live it.

For far too long I have bought into the lie that I do not deserve more.  I am not gifted or capable of more.  I am not smart enough.  Eloquent enough.  Spiritual enough.  Beautiful enough.  Oh the enough list is far too long!  My head knows that the "not enough" list is full of lies.  My head knows, but my heart doesn't always feel it.  I am tired of looking around and wondering what if, yet closing my hands and not receiving what God is trying to give.  I am fed up with believing the lies of the world.  I cannot afford to miss any more time.  My family, my marriage, my God plans, my relationships, my Jesus...they deserve SO MUCH MORE, and it is time.  Time to open my hands and throw them into the air and praise the One who created me.  Loves me.  And dreams BIG dreams for me.

I want more.  SO MUCH MORE.  Do you?